Johan turns 4.

To my son johan,

Leaving you and daddy was a big burden that i have. Mommy cried a lot of time while counting my days before my first big flight. It was the hardest decision that i have made. But because your daddy and i arent able to give you evrything that we've dreamed of, i decided i should go and leave you for awhile.

I feel so guilty to say when you asked if i will be there on your 4rth birthday, all mommy has to say is, i cant but ill be watching you on skype.

I'm sorry baby that I'm not always right by your side to see all your firsts. But I just want to let you know that everything that I do, I'm doing it because I love you and daddy.

On this very special day, 4 years ago, you were given to us and I was so scared. I dont know how to become a good mom. But when I look at you and hear you cry, it's my love for you that guides me what to do. When the nurse let me see you for the first time, i didnt cry but i felt the most wonderful feeling. But when daddy was asleep, and i held you on my arms one night, tears finally drop from my happy eyes. I have received God's most amazing gift. God gave us his undying love by giving you to me and daddy.

Baby heart, mommy can't promise you a perfect life. But daddy and mommy will try their very best to be a good parent so you will grow up with a good heart and with a good life.

Soon you, daddy and i will be together in the same roof. I love you so much my dear johan nathaniel. I might not be there physically for the first time to celebrate your birthday but my love for you will always be by your side.

HAPPY 4 years of Life my sweet adorable child! May God blesses you good health always so mommy wont worry too much. Study hard and be a good boy always. Again sweety, I LOVE YOU SO DEARLY! Xoxo

Clay cabochon

i work 6 days this thanksgiving week. Not that im complaining. I do need lots of hours especially that this is the only job i have at the moment. And today is my rest day. And i thought of making cabochon's to be sent out to the philippines for my husband to sell. Here are the first batch and colors i made using pushmolds that i personally made as well.. :)

After work

Today, after work i went to sign myself for a flu vaccine,(it is given free by the big cheese, MickeyM) filled up consent form and fall in line. It was not that long though. And when its my turn to for a shot of the vaccine the healthcare worker ask me if is it my first time and confirmed what are my allergies because i check yes on the form that i have food allergies. I rolled out my sleeve, getting ready for my shot but when i said i got rashes if i ate chicken and eggs. Just after i said my food allergy, she said she can't give the shot. Like, huh? after my sister and my mom said i should get one, and now the healthcare, she cant give it to me. Well, apparently the flu vaccine contains some egg protein and because i'm alergic to it, she cant administer the vaccine. So, i said okay.

I called my sister and jokingly said , i ended not getting the vaccine. :))

Outside harbour pointe (point of entry going to work), i walked till i reached the bus stop station. My first time to wait there. Because i usually tell my father to pick me up at cast
Member parking lot. But this time, ill wait for him at the bus stop just right outside HP. Kinda weird because 2 women were smoking while their kids are playing at the bench. A guy was standing, keep looking at these women behind me and keep moving. I decided to distant myself from them because i was being paranoid until their bus came. So i sat down and waited for my father. My first time really to wait it a bus stop. It was a bit freezing but i managed. :) so while waiting fo papa, i took pictures of the street and where i sat.

Blogger app testing on my new iphone4s

Im a new blogger. Got myself a new iphone coz i wanted to blog wherever i am. And with the 8mp resolution camera on it, i think my photos will turn out pretty darn good! But same with the ipad2 i have, it wont allow me to upload photos on my blog. What a disappointment that is. So i tried searching, found a few solution but kinda complicated for me. Just had to try my luck on searching on the app store and type in blogger. And i was surprise and found a blogger app and its free! Isn't that amazing? Well for me it is :D. I've read the reviews. And most of them aren't please but still i wanted to try.

This blog post is through my iphone with the blogger app. So let us see how it goes. Its quite easy, its just like texting or typing in some notes on your notepad with your iphone/ipad/itouch. Now to my most desirable part of the app is where i can attach photos with my post. With the blogger app settings you can select different sizes of the image that you would want to post. Iit has a small (200x150), medium ( 320x240), large (400x300), and it also have an extra large! Wohoo! (640x480) and if you want to keep the original size of your images, you also have the option to do so. And you can also attach photos directly from your camera coz it has a button that uou can select if you wanted to attach images directly from your camera or pick sone photos that are stored on your photo album. SWEET! ��

On this post i used large size setting for my image..

Its not as easy editing your post as it is when using the computer but it is very useful for bloggers on the go! :) And if you have multiple blog sites, the Blogger app has an option to
Switch blog too. Cool right? :D

Ok, here's the photo that i took using my iphone4s camera (ilovemyiphone)❤❤❤ If it turn out pretty well, ill be 1 happy newbie blogger! :)

My first etsy buy!

I have been wanting to get a hold of this materials from snapcrafty. And i have been visiting and putting all the things i wanted to get from her on my cart but its been sitting there for a month or so. I'm still in doubt or lets just say not sure how to buy from etsy. Im a such an etsy virgin. (hahaha) But i finally gathered my courage and send my order to snapcrafty for my first ever etsy buy! woohooo!!!

They are just so lovely! Now to find time to use them and create a charming piece of jewelry.

Sweet charms

 A Happy Life Cupcake" Bagcharm

-Esperanza by jc

The color just makes me feel happy. =)

"Sweetheart" cupcake necklace
 - Esperanza by jc

Its such a sweetheart.

My first cuppies :-)

This three are some of the first polymer clay cupcake i have made in which i used the Transluscent Liquid Sculpey as a medium in making a creamy like frosting on my miniature cuppies and made them as a pendant.

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Green rose

This has got to be one of my favorites. Its a necklace made from polymer clay. Red bead and the green rose are all made from sculpey and premo polymer clay. Carefully and so patiently rounded, pierced each and every bead and hand molded every petal.

A green rose has become 1 of my favorite thing to make as a charm or pendant because of the "teleserye" from my country, the "Green Rose" based on the korean Drama with the same title. In the teleserye, jerome (jericho rosales) gave angela (anne curtis) a necklace with a green rose pendant. I so love it when he says what does it mean. Green Rose are found in heaven, and it symbolizes love that is made in heaven.. Awwwwww.. Wasn't that so divine? Dont you wish your love gave and says the same thing.

Actually, i made a necklace prior to this one, ill upload it soon. :) 

My behind the wheel exam

I just have to share it. Just this morning, i took my behind the wheel driving exam, was quite excited and at the same time, so nervous. Well, im not use to driving that relies on traffic light, stop signs, etc. Because when i was still living in the Philippines, our province don't have traffic light, and drivers have their own little rules when their hands are on the steering wheel. Yeah, i do am guilty on that part. So, when i saw my DMV examiner Javier, oh, he looks cool and nice, unlike the first two i saw before him, kinda strict looking, which can make me feel more nervous to drive. So, did the routine, sign the paper, vehicle checked, and now engines on and we are heading our way to my most awaited part of the exam, drive while i was being observe. OK, focusing on the road, the traffic signs and pedestrian. I'm still cool, while I've been praying so hard to hope i passed this time. And when the exam is almost done, i parked at the designated parking area for examinees at DMV. Turning off the engine, breath and relax. Javier pointed my mistakes, and i said, o-oh! mistakes! And before he ended the conversation, he also pointed the minimum mistakes in order to pass, and he said, YOU PASSED!!! Oh my Gosh! i was so quiet the whole time but when he said i passed, i keep thanking him then i thank Christ the King for guiding me. My Father also thought i flunked the exam cause it was taking a long time to walk out of the car after i parked it. But when i got out, giving him a 2 thumbs up! He was so happy too! my fellow examinees also congratulated me.
I really cant contain my happiness! i can now legally drive in California! And when we came home, i even kid my sister and gave her my results with a sad look on my face, and i said, check my mistakes and teach me those again. She looks disappointed, then i told her look at my reported mistakes, and then told her to look at the allowed, she said excitedly "YOU PASSED!" and i hug her! hay! Little things still matter! Thanks to Christ the King! 1 task is done. Now to wait for my Driver's ID on our mail. =)